Today is the 22nd February 2011 .

How often do you think about people that you have to keep off your contact list to make your lover happy ?

Are you like me; telling everything i know in hope the transparency principle would keep your relationship last longer or even forever . Or are you simply keeping some facts to yourself just so you could still contact some friends you know that if the facts leak out like a toppled glass of milk, friends will become strangers; lovers become single ?

Truth be told, i have been thinking bout the people in my history life . If only they knew where the line is drawn, we'd still be friends .

I never lied about my status ever since i got married, conscience - clear . But it seems not many could accept and even doomed fail . No comments bout that; i ain't god . But i hope for the best . Married being i hope you respect my decision and move on for us to be friends and friends only .

So often i thought and asked god why did all the good men appear only after i got married . But i only ended up listening to the sound of myself breathing, and answering to my own question . It was simple, i knew the question was simple and the answer was straight forward but why do i still ask ? 'At least i asked', i thought, as always, being crazy sometimes .

Those days might not be fun, but i knew they were true, no backstabbing kinda shit . I knew even if i have to call them at 4am in their sleep, they'll still pick up my call if the ringing tone manage to wake them up . Friends, to me .

But not to them, i was something more than friends . Disappointing as it seems, i hadda put down my phone and stop texting, stop calling, eventually changing my goddamn cellphone number .

Doing what i must do to keep troubles away .

Thinking of them once in a while, knowing if they kept things down we'd still be friends, and they'll eventually find someone else to have a crush, an affection or a love to lay on .

And now, some were uncontactable, some keeping a distance, i never really can know what happen after i stop texting and calling .

Hope they're well, all of them .

Adios .